Dear Momma, Happy Birthday

‪#‎DearMomma‬ Happy Birthday from ya day 1 crew...take me back to that innocent place where unconditonal love couldn't be replaced...that place where no matter what, you had our back and we had yours...that love that allows you to be naiive because nothing else matters...of course we still want you here but I try to not question God's Plans...maybe we needed another Angel...maybe this world wasnt big enough for a heart like yours...I know you're watching over us an all I can do is wish that we make u smile even in tough times...wish you could've got to see your grandkids grow up some...but we'll tell them your stories...Happy Birthday...send me a sign down that you're enjoying your day...and tell the family up there that the family down here said hi .. oh yeah...look at those heads on ya kids smh lol ‪#‎happybirthday‬ ‪#‎feliciakids‬ ‪#‎hifelicia‬

Fine China Remix

If you saw the Day 12 Leak 12 post yesterday then you know today is Part 2. Part 1 was "The Breakup" which was my remix of Mario's "Somebody Else" which also features Nicki Minaj. Leak 13 today is moving on after The Breakup, which is my remix of Chris Brown's "Fine China".... I told you it will all make sense in the end lol.

 Day 13 Leak 13 #TheMonthOfBroadway continues

Just thoughts

Everyone has a purpose...some of us know what our purpose is...some of us don't...some of us do know but we still try to challenge it. For those of us who do know what it is, we need to live it to the fullest...be passionate about it...be great and be great at being great...For those of us who don't know what our purpose is, just take some time out to think of the things that make us genuinely happy...things that we love unconditionally...things that are worth fighting for...For those of us who are challenging our purpose...stop fighting it...you're here for a reason...everyone is here for a reason...maybe to change one life...maybe to change the world....maybe to inspire the one person that can change the world...embrace your purpose...don't run from greatness... I feel like my purpose is to make music and use music as platform to inspire...Music is my outlet to tell my story in rythm..I also feel like my purpose is to make people around me happy...and to inspire others to believe ..and those are things that I'm genuinely passionate about... What are you passionate about...what do you love and genuinely makes you happy...The answers probably lead you to realize what is your purpose in life... I'm not preaching to you...I'm just giving you my thoughts on a Friday afternoon...I'm out

Broadway

A Letter to Mom - Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Mommy!!! I know you're probably spending your day with Grandma, Grandpa and Sheila. Tell them I said hi and I love and miss y'all. I don't want to take too much of your time during your birthday but I wanted to tell you I still can't believe you're gone. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you or pray that you watch over us. I know you're probably proud of some things and not so proud of other things. I'm back working so that's a good thing and I finally put an album out! You know my plan has always been to let the 'day job pay for the dream job, until the dream job pays for itself'. Zay is getting big..he's not bad but you can tell he and Ya-Ya go at it lol. Speaking of Ya-Ya...guess what ..she's giving you another grandson. Yup Zay is gonna have a brother and he named him Jacob. Yea Jacob lol he said he got the name from Twilight. Baby-D is going through some things right now. He's been away for a few months and even though he's not somewhere I would like to see him.. sometimes some space away from this outside world can clean you up. He probably has taking your passing the hardest mainly because you didn't get to see your granddaughter, Amber. He loves that girl. I wish you would've got to see her too. I can picture you watching her and cursing Baby-D out every time he does something wrong because he's new to the father world. I'm also pretty sure she would have loved to be with you the same way all the kids in the family loved being with you. Cynthia looks just like you to me. Hold up...Cynthia looks JUST LIKE YOU. Lol it's scary and beautiful at the same time. When I see her, I see you. She reminds me that you're not here anymore but I'll always remember the special moments we had as a family.  I know a lot people judged you and misinterpreted your condition but I never did...WE never did....WE understood you and know throughout all the hard times you really just wanted to be the best mother and grandmother you could be for us. Sometimes your challenge got the best of you but it never kept you down. You fought until the end and we were excited about the possibility of seeing you whole again. I never thought that day at the court house in New York was gonna be the last day I would get to see you alive. I still have the picture in my head of you walking away. I saw the tears in your eyes. We were ready for you to come home. It still seems crazy that you passed the day before you were suppose to come home. Maybe God didn't want you to come back to the poison out here. Maybe he felt like you would be better by his side and close to Grandma, Grandpa and Sheila. Whatever the case may be I miss you... I love you... Happy Birthday                                                                      

Love,

Ish
                                                                                                 
P.S..... Michelle is supposed to move back up here in June...and she got the Ziti on deck.... lol.... Hopefully Me, Michelle, Keebee, Shawn and Steve can hold it down... I think so

12-01-12